THINGS THAT HAVE MADE ME CRY DURING THE FIRST HALF OF MY PREGNANCY

About a month ago Scott and I had plans to go to Costco. You do not understand how excited I was because I was seriously craving a churro. Like I had thought to myself multiple times that week "I cannot wait for a churro this weekend" So we do our shopping, Scott eats lots of samples of things that make me want to gag, we get ready to check out and then I realize THE FOOD COURT IS CLOSED.

Ok now before I go on any longer I ask you to remember that I am like 15 weeks pregnant at that time and very hormonal and emotional.  I know the reaction I had is more like one of a 5 year old so please... no judgements.

I know I am about to lose it. I really don't feel like crying in the checkout line so I grab the keys from Scott and tell him I will meet him in the car where I can cry in peace. I start bawling as I walk out of Costco because I just wanted that churro so. dang. bad. And then I realize I have no idea where we parked. So now I am wandering the giant Costco parking lot on a very busy Saturday afternoon, with tears streaming down my face, and no churro. When I finally find Scott and the car I am crying even harder because I am so embarrassed that I am not only crying over the fact I don't have a churro, but that I also got lost in the parking lot.

Guys I don't know how people without a strong loving support system do it. Scott has been so sweet and understanding this whole pregnancy and the no churro/parking lot fiasco was no different. He didn't make feel stupid in the slightest, reminded me that it was so amazing I was growing our baby, and then drove 25 minutes to the closest Costco and got me a churro. I love him.

Pregnancy is a wonderful miracle of life that I am SO grateful to experience. I am so so so grateful to be growing a baby and my heart hurts for those that are unable to do so. I know I have been pretty open with how hard this pregnancy has been and I don't want to come off as ungrateful, but I also want to be honest and as real as possible. Because it is hard. So many new things are happening, your body is changing and your hormones are out of wack. I have cried A LOT over the last 4 1/2 months. And while I could be embarrassed and ashamed of my reactions, I like to think that this just means we will have an extra sensitive and caring baby! Here are a few highlights-

- Cried a few hundred times in the first trimester because all I could do was lay on the couch and felt lazy.
- I was meeting my friend at a coffee shop and decided to get a hot chocolate and a cinnamon roll. The guy ringing me up says "wow someone is treating themselves today" and gave me a VERY judgey look. I cried when I got home.
- On our way to Utah I got to board before Scott. It was Southwest so I wanted to make sure I could save him a seat because I didn't feel like throwing up next to a stranger. It was a full flight and very stressful trying to save the seat. Once he sat down I burst into tears. 

- Cried in Target because baby clothes were so cute.
- Cried in H&M because baby clothes were so cute.
- Cried when President Bush came out to throw the coin at the Super Bowl, not because I have any connection to him (I think I was like one when he left office) but because he looked so cute and happy.
- When I found out Jade and Tanner from the Bachelor were pregnant too and I was so happy for them.
- This cute music video. I watched it like 5 times and bawled every time.
- Cried during the Beauty and the Beast trailer (I feel like I should note I would probably would have cried if not pregnant)
- Cried when Scott made me a peanut butter sandwich. (He is allergic to peanuts!!! Risking his life for me!!!)
- In my family group text it came up that my parents met 51 years ago and I cried for a good 20 minutes.
- Cried cuz I didn't have a bump yet
- Cried when I started to get a bump
- Cried at pretty much every commercial on TV that features a baby
- Cried at pretty much every commercial on TV that features a couple in love
- Cried at 3:13 in this video when this guy met his hero, The Rock. I don't even like The Rock.
- Cried watching The Amazing Race (why was I watching this??? I have no idea) because one of the teams was so proud when they finished the challenge
- Cried every time I thought about finding the gender
- Cried about 139489238492384 other times too.

Let's hope that my hormones will even out a bit during the second half so Scott can get a little break from wiping my tears. Because let's be honest, once the baby comes I don't think I will ever stop crying...